hello readers ... got miss me?! usually weekends .. is kinda bore for anyone else out there .. haha but never mind .. my weekends .. sat ..... training ... sun ... church .. thats all .. but last sat was my best weekend ever .. why?! is kinda inspiriting weekend ... which what i can say. because there is someone telling me what i should do .. setting goals and etc. and also i need to do something about my life. because by 30 years old i still doing nothing towards my life. i think my life will be screwed! so ya ... add oil edmund FIGHTING!! and also ... i hid about this thing about me like this person, i mean yes i LIKE alot of persons .. but this special someone really have the quality of the woman of my life, because she is caring in such a way that： - she will not screw my life up, who wants a gf which screw your life up?! some will .. true story ppl!! - she is the one which we can be best friends, confidante, and alot the kid out of me (though she detest it but she is ok with it) - she have the qualities of a wife, can go inside kitchen and also keep in touch with the world - she is truthful to herself (brave enough to tell those glamorous past) all this sums up all! but unfortunately ... lots of hurdle .. never mind shall not elaborate ... even if its not together the way we are is more than enough =) ok ok ... nevermind ... haha parents not at home can be kinda chaos in me .. though yes i can mess up the kitchen .. sleep in their room ... and on my 883 for the whole night with no one to shout at me ... BUT! i miss them so much =( YES! i miss them so much!! ok ok my life is screwed now ... i am BROKE now YES BROKE! i also dont understand why either! shit how would i going to spend this whole month .. ='(