i will never look forward this week ... trainings tempos are getting higher .. sighs.. i wonder when it will end .. i wanna buck up .. and every sunday is very stressfull... i jus dun look forward on sunday.. is super stressful.. HELP ME .. and ya nw on the last brink of my cqc life.. edmund PLEASE buck up.... never mind leave work aside .. ytd meet JENNIFER .. miss her loads ... as promised i celebrated her bdae and bought her a cake .. well a lil too big .. but ya hope she will love the belated v day present .. hope she will come back by my side and reconcile ... i duno when it will come .. but thanks for encouraging me ... when i m super stress .. i guess i nid u ... zhen de .. come back to work .. haiz when it will end .. i dunno .. i dun wanna end up every week being stress and ya there are ppl ard me help me ... but i cant help myself .. i dunno y .. i just seems so blur very blur and dunno wad happen to the situation.. yes i can be slow .. but i nid to realise wad is the situation around me .. if i screw up things .. i will only make the whole course suffer which i dun wanna see that .. haix .. never felt tt stress up for weeks ... told hia di bout tt also he also say continue to endure becoz is never worth it to be OOC cos alot of things will happen!! I often ask God for directions it seems the answer still cannot be find .. stress up ... i m really tired .. i think i will suffer from nervous breakdown REAL soon ... the stress i m tryin to endure is far too much le ... had a talk with mummy and daddy they encourage me with the same things .. ENDURE thru .. i must admit that yes i m a sheltered kid .. and i use to believe that things will go thru by luck .. but for this time wrong REALLY WRONG .. i m in a loss nw .. serious in a deep lost ... i dunno how to go and wher to go le .. God really must help me ..

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