i dunno why i m always in a contradict mind.. today on my way home i was thinking lots of things.. why m i cant seems to put her down?? wher i wanna find a stable r/s i really dunno.. i m really frustrated.. HOW COME SHE JUST CANT GET OUTTA MY MIND?? i really dunno .... i wanna find a new r/s BUT is really hard to get rid of it ba.. LOOK I HAVE BEEN EMO FOR DUNNO HW MANY GOD FORSAKEN WEEKS LE... ppl tell me to move on .. ppl tell me to forget her I CANT SEEMS TO DO THAT.. I LOVE HER.. tts all .. ppl says tt i have been used .. but to me SHE DID NOT.. ppl say she is a materialistic gal BUT SHE IS NOT.. i wonder why she can get real tired THAT FAST?? i have blame myself for tt and i m all at fault for causing her to change her mind ... SO FAST.. i dunno .. i had so many past r/s i can move on tt fast .. BUT her?? WHY??? why she is always the special one? tt make me so pain? why would she be the special one which made me felt so deep.. when she told me tt i initially still can take it.. BUT as the days goes by.. the pain hurts deeply.. i dunno wo zhen de shou shang le... (i m really hurt) DEEPLY... to her she blame me for making her felt so stress up .. making her feel so sad .. making her think tt i m nt uds-ing .. yes i have to admit tt i m selfish ... yes i m .. being selfish jus to keep u with me to let me love her.. SHE WILL NEVER UDS HW THE PAIN CYCLE IN MY HEART.. NEVER!!! i hate myself.. Y i nv treasure her.. Hw stupid i m for quarreling with her.. hw stupid i m for my anger.. hw stupid i m for nt loving her tt much .. i m such an idiot.. she will never know hw much i never wanna let her go.. and yet she walk off my life.. leaving me blank and hurts and sad.. i hate myself

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