hello readers ... got miss me?! usually weekends .. is kinda bore for anyone else out there .. haha but never mind .. my weekends .. sat ..... training ... sun ... church .. thats all .. but last sat was my best weekend ever .. why?! is kinda inspiriting weekend ... which what i can say. because there is someone telling me what i should do .. setting goals and etc. and also i need to do something about my life. because by 30 years old i still doing nothing towards my life. i think my life will be screwed! so ya ... add oil edmund FIGHTING!! and also ... i hid about this thing about me like this person, i mean yes i LIKE alot of persons .. but this special someone really have the quality of the woman of my life, because she is caring in such a way that： - she will not screw my life up, who wants a gf which screw your life up?! some will .. true story ppl!! - she is the one which we can be best friends, confidante, and alot the kid out of me (though she detest it but she is ok with it) - she have the qualities of a wife, can go inside kitchen and also keep in touch with the world - she is truthful to herself (brave enough to tell those glamorous past) all this sums up all! but unfortunately ... lots of hurdle .. never mind shall not elaborate ... even if its not together the way we are is more than enough =) ok ok ... nevermind ... haha parents not at home can be kinda chaos in me .. though yes i can mess up the kitchen .. sleep in their room ... and on my 883 for the whole night with no one to shout at me ... BUT! i miss them so much =( YES! i miss them so much!! ok ok my life is screwed now ... i am BROKE now YES BROKE! i also dont understand why either! shit how would i going to spend this whole month .. ='(

hmm hello earthlings .. wonder u guys are still reading? but ... hello .. recently it have been a nice and roller coaster challenges ... and also did alot of serious considerations .. many decisions made .. might look or even sound wrong .. but since i did made this decision .. i shall be stand firm to it .. hmmm also .. went church today .. and went to this course .. which really made alot of impact ... which also somehow answered my questions towards my commitment in ling ying ... so somehow i did made this decision to stay on .. no matter how bad my parents object .. cos to me ... is within my own spiritual comfort .. and my ah tao have been quite supportive towards the thing i told him eg: i m not gg to hold joss sticks, help him burn incense paper ... i mean my whole team know the implications of my religious commitment .. so .. to me .. i m still ok .. and also ... i have someone in mind .. but then i told myself not too .. cos my friend did tell me this wise point (not really wise) but it help .. he told me this .. i only get disturb or shall i say got milked by my colleagues .. dun become to the matter of the fact people take u as an asshole .. so yup .. only just sit and watch .. or shall i say is too late for me to tell her all this .. yes girl i like u .. but i can only sit and watch! hmm just now i saw my pri sch mate .. guess what he is driving a porsche .. and what about me .. trucks and suv? and the best thing is?! is not even mine .. and i sat down and think .. this life is not i wanna lead .. i must do something about it .. but i m still pondering where should i start off .. yes!SAVE SOME MONEY! haha .. so ... God please lead me towards the path i wanna go... for the rest of my time i tell myself ... let u go ... yes i did .. but memories still linger .. but after u shifted off .. i keep asking myself why on earth will i still wanna watch your empty house which the reality told me is already no more .. hmmm is over?! i dont know and dont wish to know either =) thats all for my emotional and some not so logical dump down will blog more later on .. peace out

First thing family My cousins are back and this time our 全家福 finally full strength


Ok 2nd thing ... Cny .... Haha pretty hectic ... Hmmm with lions dragons and dragon king .... Wriggling and party rock with them

Oh wells another year had passed .... All this while I thought I had improved but .... Sadly is not after i had being threw with tons of responsibility .. Stressful ... There are times I told myself not to cry but sometimes I need to hide somewhere and let it roll .. So oh wells ... I shall rejoice this terrifying 2011 is over ... Soon

Why things happen till like that?

hmmms been thru ups and down .. bullshits and nonsense ... but then for this 6 years i finally up to the point whereby i am going to take a greater responsiblity .. which is a good thing, because i am being streched and know my limits. and also leadership training, makes me know myself better.

and also thank to the friends around me, who gave me a positive coaching on my finances ... damned.. hmmms is a shame .. but i will try my best.

its amazing that family supports u whenever u do .. it gave u somemore sense of joy to complete job.

decided to join more positive activities .. hmms like vertical marathon .. and now the ramp up training i did today .. was quite disappointing .. because ....... first moutain biking .. failed .. instead did an urban biking ... then swam ... hmms 10 over laps in an hour .. no good. oh wells ... but then is ok .. i hope more training will help =)

hmms i did not know that being taken care off can be a bliss hahaha .. hmms this few days i am sick .. and ya .. people like adrian and marcus took care of me .. and indeed .. what i need now is rest .. cos after ndp IS TRAINING TIME!! hahaha ... CSB!! the greatest challenge i am facing in my life .. 32 km route march is no joke dude .. haha .. hmms oh wells and also this determines my career to .. no matter what i am gonna give it a shot, be it fail or pass .. awwww is a good experience .. hahaha. Hmms is odd to blog on a sat .. cos by right NOW i am at the float, starting my weekly work life balance ... haha never mind ... missed my sat so much now, even though is work .. but i enjoyed alot hehe, also learn new things talk to new people, made new friends, hmms oh wells ... what good thing have to be end .. hehee ... anyway this week is a failure week to me .. because i realised that i can be so easily get defeated .. hmms i think i must do something about it .. cos the route march ... 4 km only lei .. can get defeated liao .. this is so not me .. my name is called ROACH!! cannot be defeated the roach lei ... oh wells ... cannot slack liao ... my career is at stake! hahaha jia you e.low =)